Let me start by saying I had no expectations. I got home, cared for the dogs then decided what the hell I’m in a good mind frame. I retread our prior messages, still seeing no red flags, so I called. At three Rings I almost hung up. I got distracted for a moment and he answered.
I am a bit tipsy right now and can’t do the play by play this conversation truly deserves.
We started off cordial. Very how was your day, then going over some previously discussed topics. He continued to ask some of the deepest most relevant questions anyone has ever posed to me. I found myself so tongue tied considering the things I had just posted.
I wish I could put into words the sound of his voice. The way it penetrates my soul. But there are none.
He said he saw a flash of a girl in a pencil skirt with a cream sweater. The exact thing I was wearing. We have had many wonderful spooky moments of connection and that was the first.
We discussed our needs and wants. I explained my brief history and my more adventurous youth.
I wish I could pin point the turn in our conversation, but I really can’t. I turned from the guarded professional almost on an interview, to the start of the submissive I’m becoming. He brought that out of me.
He asked me about my fantasies, my limits.
(Laughing) my favorite part of the conversation being him making a cup of coffee but being so distracted that he forgot to put the grinds in. He didn’t realize until he sipped it. By that point he had my mind as completely as I had distracted his.
Something in me doesn’t want this post to go into the sexual aspect, but much more the emotional. They were and still are both there in an amazing balance(as they should be).
What we both thought would be a mere 10 minute conversation became five and a half hours. I did not and still never do want to get of the phone with him.
For the first time ever I crave his constant attention, but more then that his affection. I’m getting used to the fact that he may expect the same.
I could write a novel on this conversation. But I know that night I went to sleep and I felt pure hope. My body was on fire and he calmed my mind. I know now they were separate actions, but both sublime.
As I went to sleep I had that horrible twinge in the back of my mind to not count on anything past that one conversation. If life has taught me one thing is to not count on the feelings and reactions to what you perceive as pivotal moments to be reciprocated. I have been proven wrong. This makes me glow inside and out.
After we hung up we still sent just a few messages. He wished me the dearest sweetest goodnight. I felt cared for.
When I woke up the next day feeling alive, vibrant, excited for the day to come (wet as all hell). I found the most amazing thing ever on my phone. Messages from him describing when he woke up. His thoughts and want of me and his need to share it with me.
He had given me some instructions for the next morning at work, that I was eager to follow for him. But much more than that he gave me a feeling of pure caring. I know at that moment I appreciated it. I craved it. The freedom of expressing emotions.
I don’t try to stay awake or let my mind get so spin that I can’t sleep. Instead I go to sleep sated, with wonderful imagery of this caring beautiful dominate man. Everyday I know him more. Everyday I look forward to waking up knowing that I will check my phone and see a wondrous expression of his feelings and needs. It makes the next day something to look forward to and it’s only the close of day four.
I would love to sit on the kitchen floor all night typing all of the feelings that I gotten me to this point, but my need for balance requires me to get up post this and wait until tomorrow.