In just a few hours I will be heading out of work. Running happily through the rain to run some last minute errands before Thursday. 6pm no matter where I am ill make that fateful call to sir. Another celebration of our anniversary. This time not the ceremony the last one was, but even more sentimental, as we are both preparing for a lovely long weekend together. I even stocked the house with food(for me that is a big deal!)
Last night we spoke briefly after yoga, both knowing that we needed food. I had a few things that still needed to be checked off my to do list. So an hour later I called him to be tucked in. It was so cold, but I can no longer sleep with clothes, I must be naked with only my collar on. Anything besides my blanket and comforter and I’ll never fall asleep.
Do to our busy schedules there was no training. Sir said for me to train in the am. I was already tucked into bed and he didn’t want me to get back up. At that point my mind froze. I responded, but I’ll be alone. I had never put the plug in without his guidance and gentle words. He agreed once I assured him that I would be even sleepier after.
I laid on the bed, stomach down, legs together, a new position, inserted it much quicker than I normally would, it was heaven. He asked if I had something low to sit on, I do. He said knee bends hard onto the chest, say up/down as I hit and lifted, he counted. Then walk, practice. He was so proud that it has never fallen out. Then bend at the waist, hands flat on the wall, wait, count to 60 then kegel.
Always wanting to know what felt better? The waiting, the wall was my answer. Then stand, bend at the waist, touch the floor, pull it out quick. For the first time it made a pop sounds. He was happy, that was the sound he wanted.
Then I laid back down. We talked, I got sleepy, kind words, but I had forgotten twice in the beginning to call him sir. He knows that when I change from work me, to home me, to slave me, it isn’t always fast. He told me he was not angry but I had to learn, he didn’t want to punish me by saying no to the training, because he enjoyed it and it would be him punishing himself. So he told me when we hung up, no covers for 5 minutes. This was not done in anger, but I know I have to improve on this. I said I understand and I will get better, I’m sorry.
We continued to talk of great words and there impact on us as opposed to their mundane uses. We talked of how happy we were that the time was now flying and we could be together soon. I told him that I had just finished a surprise I was planing for him(he loves surprises). He was so touched, he said no, don’t take the covers off, no punishment because he was so happy. I asked if he was sure, he said yes. Off to sleep I went, warm happy and secure, dreaming all night if cuddling up to him to keep warm.
3am ish, sir called. I was asleep, but answered. Even though I don’t remember the words exchanged in our overnight calls, the sound of his voice is all that matters. I’ve come to look forward to them as much as my morning emails.
Also this morning he surprised me with a text, I was shocked he was up.
But responded with a big smile, he thinks of me just as I think of him. I’m just now accepting that.
Happy almost anniversary sir!!
Ps. I didn’t open the last email….yet.
2days. 10hours. 5minutes left to wait.